Why is it so hard to let go and trust that God has a greater plan for our lives?

goodness, this question has had me pondering for days. I know I have a selfish, and sinful nature, but I want to give it all over so badly, yet I constantly hang on to something.

Tonight I let go of another thing, my leadership position at Fellowship. this was so hard! I cried writing the e-mail. I read through it a million times trying to contemplate whether or not I really wanted to send it. Did I really want to shut the door to the church I had known for 5 years? I know I have found a great Church where God has called me for the time. I am not sure it is a place I will be for a long time, but i am there for now.

My heart is yearning for so many things right now. I am so lost as to what is coming next in my life. I am scared. I don't know where I'll be for school next year, and I don't know what is going on with my family. I am slowing losing control, but I know its part of Gods plan. I have ot completely lose everything in order for his work to shine through. I must died to myself so that I might truly live through him.

I am ready for the new chapter. I am and reading endlessly through the open book. right now the pages are blank, just waiting to be written with Gods plan and will for my life.

For now, I wait, I wait for him. I wait for his glory to be revealed. I wait for his splendor to shine like the stars. He is my God, and there is no one like him.